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Rena Vaz (Laurena Vazquez)
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On December 16th, 2013, I lost my heart and soul, boyfriend and best friend to suicide.
The heartache is irrevocable...
Nov. 13. 1991
~
Dec. 16. 2013


But for some, there is still hope.
Please allow me to implore you to reach out to those who are hurting
You could just save their life.
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Almost 4 weeks ago, on December 16th, I lost my truest love and boyfriend of 2 years, to suicide.

I have always considered myself a strong person but I find that belief, and many others, to be shaken as of late.

I have never been in loved so much, or loved so much, in all of my 20 years.

A shadow of despair and sorrow have set over where the sun used to set for me.
It feels as if a rotted lump of cancer has taken the place of a once beating heart, inside my chest.

Every single day is a struggle beyond strength and endurance, to move out of bed and find the will, or might to go on.

Life was a journey - a glorious, healing and growing journey, until he decided to end it all.
I doubt I will ever forgive him for this, and I know I will never forgive myself - All those times and nights he saved me, yet I couldn't save him. Grief and woe have replaced all other emotions felt.
The heartache is irrevocable......

And I know Andrew would want me to live, thrive and be all I dreamed to be, behind closed eyelids.
He would want me to live life for the both of us, find it in myself to forgive him and pick up the pieces.
But this isn't something you "heal" from. This isn't something you plan to cope with.

There is nothing more valuable or dear that could have been taken from me.
When he pulled the trigger, he took me with him.

In loving memory of Andrew Dalton Salsman.
Auf wiedersehen zu meine wahre liebe.
Te extrano y te quiero mucho.

Nov. 13. 1991
         ~
Dec. 16. 2013

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Piccolapiplup Featured By Owner Sep 18, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
thank you for +fav :happybounce: Heart 
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HazelTheUnicorn Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2014  New member Student General Artist
Thanks very much for the fave!
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Runa14 Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you very much for the favorites! +fav Heart 
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Andy813 Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
hey Laurena! gracias for faving my Lady Gaga drawing:) means a lot.
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pa3kpanda Featured By Owner Jul 24, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
Thank you so much for the faves!!
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Yuki-Photo Featured By Owner Jun 16, 2014
Thank you so much for the fav`s :heart:

Don't forget to follow me on Facebook (if you don't do that allready).
More pictures there Yuki-Photography
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guillomcool Featured By Owner May 22, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanx for the Tigra fave, rena ! ;)
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Spencey Featured By Owner May 21, 2014
Thanks for faving  Dinner for Two, Dr Fu Manmew? 
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MokutekiWa Featured By Owner May 17, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the fave! :heart:
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